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Soon after my seventieth birthday, at an annual checkup which was routine but also not, my doctor, a man who could be thought to lack tact, by way of complimenting me on my general state of good health informed me that I could probably, all things being equal, I could likely expect to enjoy ten good years, cautioning me that as I approached eighty my body would likely begin to show increasing signs of wear and tear, advising me to anticipate that by working on balance and strength; for him that meant yoga. Did I mention that I live near Woodstock, New York? I suppose this conversation might seem grim but I found it liberating. At the time I was recently bereaved after a long marriage, and was ready to start to realign my life now that I’d be living solo. I should make clear, I don’t think of myself as single; after living with someone for forty-eight years you grow into each other, so when that other person is gone the space he occupied remains a tangible, lasting reality; at least, that’s the way it is for me.

Building on my doctor’s advice, given the reality of where I live, in this big, old house, how many years might I want to remain here, how many years could I cope with the garden, do what needs to be done, I was more modest. I think I can count on five years in which I can still function as I have through the years; years in which I’ll still be pretty much me. Or, to put it another way, five good springs. We lived here together nineteen years, Vivian and I; I’ve lived here by myself for three. My first two years solo were taken up with remaking the house, making it mine, getting work done in the garden, while also doing my real work: a new adaptation of A Christmas Carol was staged – it’s being repeated this year – and recently I performed a solo play I’d written, the first time I’ve acted since 2007. And the spring of 2021, the spring that’s long past, I counted as the first. Four more. And then I’ll see where I am.

Here’s where I live. The favorite place I’ve ever lived.

A double rainbow over the drive. My two pugs.
Another spring, 2019

Beginning

Recovering from my reaction to the Moderna booster shot I’m thinking that now is as good a time to begin as any. Like all of us, I think, I’m anxious to get beyond this pandemic time and into whatever will come after. I’ve been busy over the last year, but now most of that is done and I’m beginning to look forward to what’s next. Winter’s on the way, I still have maintenance to get done to make the house ready, knowing that what’s to come will be spring. The second spring: which brings me to the title.